Hey, everybody.
Sorry I'm flaking out. I'm healthy(-ish), I work ( video footage of me running around delivering papers->
tinyurl.com/kkuox7 ), I'm a year older, and I'm still trying to find my Mojo.
I'm not back, but I'm not leaving. I just have no computer to update from (aside from txting from my cell phone to my twitter account) or view the internet. I'm getting some withdrawals not being able to look at everyone's art and comics *scratches arm*.
I'm just posting to say I'm alive and then I'm getting off my brother's computer until I can save enough money to get a new computer.
Life has decided to toss a couple more challenges my way to help me grow. My brother is having horrible pains around his stomach due to what we think is his gallbladder. It's expensive to fix and my brother and I are hard working to pay our bills. Our pride is going to kill us but I understand that few people during this time can help.
There
was someone who did help out, but I basically sold my soul to get some money upfront to help my brother out. I've been commissioned to make a mosaic. A fairly size-able Mosaic that I have no tools or materials for. Not only do I have a problem with getting the pieces together but I'm having trouble getting myself together to finish it. I won't pick up any other projects until this one is done.
My self-doubt is crippling me to the point that I'm fighting back. I know I won't not be able to be same after this but I've gone back to the basics, or I should say, I've retraced my memories of how my passion for art came about. I'm trying different(and slower) ways to better my passion.
My latest development with myself was with a cynical thought on others in the professional field of sports. Like most(americans), we have came to the assumption that most professional players in sports are only in it for the money. All that talent that gets all that fame, but what happens to the player when you take away that fame? Does s/he still have a will for that talent?
'Athletes' push themselves to be the best that they can be.
'Entertainers' are pushed by the audiences that are around them.
In my past I developed my passion for art out of just being an 'Entertainer'.
I now want to be a athletic artist that pushes himself.
It's hard for me to draw expecting that no-one is going to see it. And that thought is what was slowing me down.
As you can see I'm not giving up and* Never gonna give you up, Never gonna let you down, Never gonna run, around and desert you, Never gonna make you cry, Never gonna say, goodbye, Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you.
We've know each other for so long, Your hearts been aching, But you're too shy to say it. Inside we both know whats been going on
We know the game and were gonna play it.
And if you ask me how I'm feeling, Don't tell me you're too blind to see.
Never gonna give you up, Never gonna let you down, Never gonna run, around and desert you, Never gonna make you cry, Never gonna say, goodbye, Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you.
Give you up. give you up, Give you up, give you up, Never gonna give, Never gonna give, give you up, Never gonna give, Never gonna give, five you up.
I just wanna tell you how I'm feeling. Gotta make you understand.
Never gonna give you up, Never gonna let you down, Never gonna run, around and desert you, Never gonna make you cry, Never gonna say, goodbye, Never gonna tell a lie and hurt you.
Hugs and Kisses,
Mighterbump